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Kate

Following my divorce due to an emotionally and physically abusive marriage, I have to move my nursery of 1 hectare (which is on his property) over to my new premises in the next 3 months, but I am financially, physically and emotionally drained. We were married with an Antenuptial Contract and I walked out with my personal effects only, losing a lot of money by getting new premises, putting up new shade houses, etc. COVID has exacerbated the situation severely, as we were out of work for months and South Africa is still under strict regulations in terms of work. Now we have run out of money and can't move the rest of the stock, as we can't pay for transport of the stock. We also have landscaping projects to complete (and this is a blessing, because it means we still have work), but we need money to complete the job before we can get money in again. I have nothing left to pay my staff's salaries and wages this Friday and 2 of the 3 vehicles are broken down, which we need for landscaping projects and transporting of plants. I'm trying to deal with my anxiety and depression and talk to God about it every day. It feels like He is angry with me because I filed for divorce. I am not getting any answers from God and I feel desolate, completely alone. I need Him and I need Him to show me that He hasn't turned His back on me and I need an urgent miracle. I'm afraid if I commit suicide, God will never forgive me and I'll lose my salvation. And what will become of my staff if I quit? That would be selfish. I can't give up. They are worried too, even if they don't admit it. Maybe they are trying to be brave, but we are all going through this. Please pray for us; for redemption, for emotional healing, for Godly insight and vision, for supernatural intervention, for a financial breakthrough, for my people and for me.

Received: February 24, 2021