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Anonymous

Please pray for direction. My husband and I have been separated for almost 2.5 years, but we still have a relationship together. I've been to 2 Christian counselors and they both have adviced me to divorce asap. He's emotionally abusive to my kids and me, but I don't think he means to be which keeps me praying he can change. I can't seem to let go. I feel stuck and depressed. I know God hates divorce. My kids are hating me for not divorcing him. But He's helped us so much, but they don't care about that. It hasn't all Been bad, but when it's bad it's really bad. When things are good, he jokes around that makes them feel bad about themselves. He used to say we all were too senitive, now I don't know anymore if thats true or if he shouldn't joke around like that. All the lines are blurry of what I used to know. My kids have suffered alot and need a lot of prayer! My 2 oldest are on drugs, depressed & sleeping around. One of them is in a similar relationship that she can't get out of now. My youngest just turned 12 and has said she's thought about commiting suicide. I don't know if it all comes back to this marriage or their dad and I divorcing. Either way I'm so left in the dark with knowing what God wants me to do. I feel stuck, trapped and very depressed. Please, please pray for my family and direction for me because it's literally in my hands. He won't leave. I've tried to leave in a good way many, many times before but he won't leave. In order for this to happen I'll have to fight to stay away and that will be really hard because I do love him and he already feels so rejected and hurt by me. I hate hurting him. But if I know that God is showing me that this will never change then I'll have to do what's hard. Please don't think he's a bad person. Please pray for us! I'm sorry this was long. Thank you so much!

Received: November 20, 2019