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Anonymous

I'm 63 and have never asked for prayer before but I'm just so tired, worn out and feel defeated. Almost 20 years ago, I started having pain and other health issues after having a hysterectomy. My whole body felt like I'd been run over by a semi truck - and it was so very painful to put weight on my feet that I went to the doctor and told him they felt as if all the bones were broken in them. That started me on a journey of declining health, increased weight and a long trail of doctors who couldn't decide what was wrong with me but wanted me to take a pain pills and a pill for "depression".

I declined both.

Finally, after 9 years of no clear diagnosis other than "non specific auto immune disease" or possible "seronegative rheumatoid arthritis", I was given the news that I have severe osteoarthritis, fibromyalgia & lupus. I have constant pain when I walk, due to bone on bone arthritis in both feet & needing a knee replacement. My body still feels as if it's been run over by a truck and my life's gone from being an active, productive one where I cared for an contributed to our family, to one almost the opposite. I struggle daily to complete everyday chores, wearing out and having so much pain by mid afternoon that the rest of the day looms like a black hole, threatening to swallow me up in it's pain.

I feel so useless and helpless to change the direction things are heading. I may just be 63 but my body feels 127, I can't imagine growing older and being able to cope.

Please, pray for me to have the strength to do what needs to be done each day and that I can see clearly what our Lord wants me to do. That I may have enough strength to see these illnesses and realize they do not own me, even if they are weighing so heavy on me that I would like to give up.

Thank you, it's just reaching the point where I feel so helpless, useless & good for nothing.

Received: October 30, 2018